it’s a little wonderful that andrea sent this to me today. i’m feeling a bit like this. a bit like this, and then i make sure i listen to enough sad breakup music to keep my feet firmly on the ground. it’s creeping up on me, but i am old enough to be adult about it… to be patient with myself and with us. maybe one of these days, i’ll have to give this to him. or to someone else. but i do finally feel like the world has changed. i feel myself towing against some kind of tide. im wading on the beach, but i feel the pull, i feel the comfort and longing and the longevity somehow. it’s strange. it does feel like looking off onto the horizon or looking for the end of the ocean.